Where to start actually? Hmm...
Well I am writing today as a 22 years 7 Months and 22 days [ 26/03/2020 ]
Looking back at the older post I can't believe what's happening to me all this while and it feels so good to get in front of my laptop and writing again.
Alright here's an update for my life. Today is day-9 quarantine. Why? The whole world or basically the earth is sick. There's a virus called covid-19. Things and numbers of patient kept on increasing everyday so which is why we need to be quarantine. Above all, our country even drag? the duration of "Partial Lockdown". I can't even go outside the house like not even steps away from the gate and my mom will call me. The only person who can goes outside is my dad ( of course ), since he is our head of family.
Why am I writing again?I do have my reasons why I decided to write again. Believe it or not but as I grow older, my memory is getting blurred out. Tons of memories cannot be recall. So I am having fun reading my older post. Like how the older me has evolve throughout the years. And I am getting mad also because I can tell that there are few post that I wrote against what am I feeling. My inner feeling kind of hurt knowing I wasn't even being honest to myself about what really happen. Yeah that's why I am writing again.
Who am I now?
I cannot say that I am the same old girl who believes in love and keeps on talking about her boyfriend all day long in an entry. Nope definitely not me. I am almost an adult now. I tend to behave like one. I am currently an intern or a trainee developer at a software company. Yeah I know people will be like my god you're gonna be a developer? That's a tough job man. And you are a girl also. My goal is to work as a permanent staff here for at least 1 year. I gotta say that I can see "Gender-ism" here. Short little story, I came in as the first internship student then soon after a month there's one guy also an intern developer came in. But, I am noticing that my supervisor is giving him more work than I am. Not gonna lie I feel disturbed by the fact that is it I am a slow learner? I always ask if there is anything I can help her with then she will tell me that she will give me work shortly in an email. Then I keep on refreshing but nothing comes up. Adding to that they even talked about how good that guy is with me inside the group. I just keep this feeling to myself since I wanted to be professional and shows that I am strong enough and I am not disturbed at all by it. Still not sure if I am doing it right.
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For now, I am gonna end my blog first. I will come back here tomorrow to tell a story maybe about my plan on what I am gonna buy and my planning travel? Can't wait for tomorrow to come. Bye!
Love,
Fatin
