I am writing this page to tell you about guy that I can never forget of even after 6 years.
A guy called Go Jun Pyo.
Someone that I can never tell him how much I want to be with him. Someone who will always be there in my dreams and my doa.
Someone that I helplessly see and care from afar.
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2013
I went into a boarding school in Johor. I am so grateful to be there. Not to mention I even wen there with my " long acquantainece? "..
here we get into the same class and you know we have a system called 'Sistem rumah'. Thankfully we even got in the same rumah. But, not only that he definitely is not Goo Jun Pyo.
- MPP Selection -
We were sitting in the library waiting for the interview to be one of the MPP. Little did I know that this is thestart of a new journey. Long story short I was appoint to be one of the MPP and so does Goo Jun Pyo. I could not tell what position do he gets but he is one of MPP. As far as I can remember, we were going for a camp for MPP in Kedah. I started to notice him not knowing why. Like a fool, I only see him from afar. He get close to my close acquaintance really fast. Not sure if it is only my feeling but I do feel that he is looking at me too at time.
-MPP Meeting-
We will always have meeting after Isya' prayer before we went for a preparation class. Again not sure why but I can always see how much he try to sit opposite to my seat. I always look down just because I don't want people to notice or what. I tried to act normal but only Allah knows how much I am nervous inside. Weirdly, every single time we had to interact with each othe I would scold him. On the other words, we were never in a GOOD TERM. Although I really want to see him.
-Preparation Class/Prep Malam-
There is a new system where we had to exchange class in order of gender. Again I was appoint to sit in his class. And he also need to go into my class. Every single time I went to get my book from my original class, I would see him sit at my place. Every single time that my heart always flutter not gonna lie. But what I did was scold him for seating at my place all the time in front of everyone. Iknow I was fool for doing that. I can't help thinking how good looking he is compared to mine. How perfect he is. he is like a prince that would only exist in a fairytale and not in my reality at least. I tried to make a distance with him which is why I always scold and treat him harshly but I love him so much that I can still write this post thinking of him. Thinking of how sweet his smile is.
I lack almost everything compared to him. Sadly I always thought he should get someone on his level and not mine although I keep longing for his love.
Back to the story, I always feel that I am alone and that I kept on denyig about this feeling until this one night I wear a red baju kurung. And he wears peach-red kinda baju melayu with seluar slack hitam and kopiah. He was walking with a group of his friend laughing happily. I always always always avoid him. But suddenly I heard his friend say:-
" Hey you are wearing the same color outfit you guys match with each other a lot."
I can't help but look at his face. Surprisingly he was laughing while admitting it. And from that moment I knew that I was not the only one who feel that way................
