A very new post for 2015

So hai,,, hmmm at first, tepat jam 12.00 a.m. 1 January 2015,,, I've been thinking about am i going to be unhappy for this new year? What am i gong to do for this year,, and yes I'm unofficially EIGHT-TEEN right now,,, ohmaigadd just imagine,,, apa yang akan aku tempuh in this outside world,, no more rules no more guides,, it'll just be me and myself .. how am i going to adapt to this whole new world, while everybody is busy making a good deed,, can I be like them? or adakah aku akan jadi lagi worst? Ohh seriously I'm scared,,, reading novels which giving me an imagination about how the real life is progressing out here which I , will be going through starting from this year,, I'm hoping to be someone that can be good to others,, Srop doing foolish thing.. deep in my heart,, I'm kind of jealous with my friends from my old school before I was transferred to another school. I've learned so many things that I started to forget about all those things I've been done before?? and I'm asking myself, what have you done in your life since you've been transferred ? But seriously, I will NEVER put on a blame to the school I was transferred bacause I've learned a lot of things from there.. well , from my sight , at first i thought that maybe i couldn't adapt well with the students as Im going to further my study to a school where it was located in a different states.. I guess? No, is it states? well, nahh ,, Im not so sure... but,  yeah,, people in my past keep on looking at STATUS and I've been surrounded by all those people which look for brand and price,, but at the other sight, Ive found that,,, my people in the past were so full of knowledge,, what I mean  is I learned how to live my life well in this world and the afterlife insyaallah,,, but ,, since I've been transferred to a new school , well i do agree about me , being culture shock,, but I manage to control it after a few months,.. which i thought that did I change for good? Nahh I don't really know, sometimes I just wanted to shut people out and be in my bed , so that I can be alone , but,, I lived in a community, no, we, human , lives in community,, so by shutting people out is not the best way to live,, that's all night